Today in class... It went very fine at first. And then something "bad" happened. It is probably my fault. I do not understand why I must be so MEAN. This is not the first time. Probably the million'th time I've been mean. I already lost 4 good friends before because of my stubborness and how mean I can be at times. Why am I so mean at times? It only brings temporary satisfaction and happiness for me. But I've realised its selfish. Can someone please be honest and tell me why? =( I'ld appreciate friends that tell me the blunt truth rather than one keeping it quiet so that I won't get hurt. Gargh, but today was a lucky day. Nothing bad happened afterwards. I began to realise all of these and how fucking mean I can be at times. I don't want to loose more friends. It's just not the way I want things to go. I have made some very nice and good friends. Sorry to those whom I have been mean before. I know especially to Syidah. 2 years(maybe more?) of tolerating my nonsense and those mean times I disturb you everytime. Sorry ahh? Haha. :P And also Nick. You've been through the most times I suppose. I know I can be a stubborn asshole at times. Now,I got to understand myself better. =(
PINK-Mean
You used to hold the door for me, now you can't wait to leave
You used to send me flowers if you fucked up in my dreams
I used to make you laugh with all the silly shit I did
But now you roll your eyes and walk away and shake your head
When the spark has gone, and the candles are out
When the song is done and there's no more sound
Whispers turn to yellin and I'm thinkin
How do we get so mean?
How do we just move on?
How do you feel in the morning when it comes and everything's undone?
Is it cause we wanna be free? Well that's not me
Normally I'm so strong
I just can't wake up on the floor like a thousand times before
Knowing that forever won't be
Always sentimental when I think of how it was
When love was sweet and new and we just couldn't get enough
The shower, it reminds me you'd undress me with your eyes
And now you never touch me and you tell me that you're tired
You know, I get so sad when it all goes bad
And all you think about is all the fun you had
And all those sorries ain't never gonna mean a thing, oh
How did we get so mean?
How do we just move on?
How do you feel in the morning when it comes and everything's undone?
Is it cause we wanna be free? Well that's not me
Normally I'm so strong
I just can't wake up on the floor like a thousand times before
Knowing that forever won't be
Oh, we said some things that we can never take back
It's like a train wreck tryna hit the right track
We opened up the wine and we just let it breathe,
But we shoulda drank it down while it was still sweet
It all goes bad eventually
Now do we stay together cause we're scared to be alone?
We got so used to this abuse, it kind of feels like home
But, my baby, I just really wanna know, oh,
How do we get so mean?
How do we just move on?
How do you feel in the morning when it comes and everything's undone?
Is it cause we wanna be free? Well that's not me
Normally I'm so strong
I just can't wake up on the floor like a thousand times before
Knowing that forever won't be
